Thank you my friends for being there for me alright. <33
I am definitely much better now. Shall blog about the picnic at marina barrage soon! Hah. :D

9884.) i keep my emotions kept inside so much that what we had was a once and a life time thing and i can't believe you threw it all away for her. i gave you my all. i loved you more than i have ever loved myself or anyone and else. i hope one day you look back on this and realize that you lost the only person who has ever truly love you.

(via Blogsecret)

I feel so tempted to end my life, right here, right now. But i don't have the courage to do so...

Went sourcing for jobs with Javine today.. Had 3 interviews at century square and tamp 1. :) Hope i can get the job and get my mind occupied so i wont have to stay at home everyday and keep going through on how pathetic i have been.

That's all for now guys.
Ciaoz.

I just can't believe the fact that you are completely and totally over me. My scars are healing but they will always be imprinted on me, cannot be erased.

I cant take it. :'(
Y do i still miss you?

I have to hide and cry...
I don't wanna let people see the frail side of me...
I need someone to talk to...
I keep thinking back and all the memories are flooding my mind...
Y is my brain acting like a total idiot? It isn't listening to what I want it to do. :(

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

No matter how hard it is, I will get over it. I know i can.

You hurt me real bad. Real bad. Why? Why do it when you said you loved me?
I loved you more and more everyday and even thought of marrying you. I feel so stupid and my confidence has all gone. I am beginning to wonder if all the 'love you' you have said to me came from the bottom of your heart. 11 months and 3 weeks of our relationship has just come to an end the moment you had your eyes on another girl. Going through all the things we have done together in my brain again and again the whole night, i realised that you have changed. It is a pity i couldn't spot it earlier. I tell myself to be strong, not to cry. But, crying seems to be able to lessen the pain. I might not have been a very good girlfriend but i know i loved you. I thought that you are different from the other guys, and it felt like a bomb landed on me when you said both of you had mutual feelings for each other. We had our fair share of happy times together and went through unhappy times by each other's side. That girl can make you give up the relationship we have established and held on dearly for so long. My heart is seriously broken. It will never be the same ever again for me.

I do miss you and the presence of you in my life. Guess i will need plenty of time to get over it. No hurry. I need tranquilizers and sleeping pills. Badly.

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